Events at the Generator space would prove to be fruitful to my ever-enlarging network of awesome peeps. At the same speaker evening where I watched Michael Jager in awe, I would also first hear from John Antonucci.

John is the Executive Director of a Chamber of Commerce backed program called LaunchVT. LaunchVT is an accelerator program that chooses applicants for an annual cohort that culminates in a pitch competition. Vermont’s version of Shark Tank.

The chosen few are introduced to area business leaders and stretched to learn and work their businesses in different ways, working both together and independently.

The pitch competition is open to the public, and gives a huge opportunity for local PR, investor awareness and cash and in-kind prizes. Hello funding.

John addressed the group to encourage anyone interested to apply. The deadline to have your application in was midnight on Sunday – today was Thursday. Shit.

I spent the next day researching the program and getting giddily excited about applying. I did my best to funnel that excitement into my application. There were questions about sales, projections, things I didn’t have or frankly, have a clue about.

A powerpoint pitch deck was requested at the end. What the hell was a “pitch deck”? I was feeling in over my head but pushing myself to leave my comfort zone, trust in the universe and go for it anyway.

I submit the application without any sales figures and without a pitch deck.

And then I waited.

I had no idea when they would make their decision as to who would be in that year’s cohort. I emailed the only person I could think of who may know, Sam, from VCET. She said usually by April 1st; it was early March. Cool.

John did end up reaching out to ask me to provide a pitch deck (damn!). Nothing fancy needed; just something basic he could present to the group that would be going through the applications. Not only did I not know what it was but I had two days to get it to him.

I called my friend, Michelle, who had earlier offered to help me with this business in whatever way she could. We rallied and had the deck in the night before the deadline. It wasn’t perfect, but it was something.

I used the waiting time to psyche myself up and call upon the visualization technique I had practiced both in meditation and via countless authors’ encouragement.

I would fall off into daydream every chance I had, envisioning being up on stage and delivering an amazing winning presentation at the pitch competition. I walked through every detail – what I wore, my body language, what I said, how I felt, looking out at the audience…winning. I made it all so real, just like I had learned to do.

This was going to be IT. My chance at presenting my product to a large audience. My chance to make it public and real. An opportunity for funding. I was sure this was for me.

I heard back from John a couple weeks later that I did not get in. For what I put into my application, I should not have been surprised. For what I put into my visualizing, I was shocked.

Now what?